~ SORROW ~ The man I've been dreaming of is none other than an imaginary man, I've been wrong to judge him, I think he's a nice man of ethics and courtesy it's the same as any other man, why am I so stupid and blind that I've gone so far in this relationship, I should know from the beginning and realize that I have been wrong for choosing a man for my life companion, now my life is like on the edge of a cliff if I step in it will fall inward but if I turn it all will be futile. I want to end my life because it is too tired this body until no longer able to crawl. What exactly do you want from me ?? Why are you evil to me ?? What is my fault until you do all you want !! is this your true nature? Why do you blow it all up to me, What's the lack of me to you like this, really too !! I give up I backed up I can not defend this, if it keeps on this better you kill me alone, I can not accept it because